Those, readers, are the most painful nights. The nights that no one knows of. The nights that are too damn long. The nights that make you not want to get out of bed in the morning. The nights that make your eye swell from sobbing so much.
Honestly I never feel included I feel like their just my friends because they fill bad for me or don't want to be mean. I swear I feel so fucking alone around everybody. I feel like a fucking outcast all the damn time.
Suicide I desperately want to tell someone but who I can't tell my best friend or my mother that I want to die they'd panic and can't tell my therapist for fear of not being taken seriously or told I'm over reacting or told I'm not suicidal enough.